pondělí 15. ledna 2018

favorites findom Goddesses: Goddess Jessica (USA - Denver)



iwantjessica.com

spoiljessica.com




i remember when She appeared on findom scene. It was like miracle that everyone was waiting for. And She became instantly number one Princess af all moneyslaves. She is so clever and cute and dominant and brave and creative and sexy and devilish and and and...

ok in iwantclips is She at the moment on the second place..it depends probably from daily number of sold clips..but She is always there one of top 3

..and of course She is very rich and has slaves around the globe!






čtvrtek 11. ledna 2018

favorites findom Goddesses: Lady Gold (GER)

blog
clips
twitter: @LadyGold_com
wishlist on amazon



She is not on popular american servers, but She is on popular german ones. yoogirls.com for example
Classy elegant young beautiful Lady from Germany, who has fans and worshipers. She is wearing the expensive clothes (and shoes!) bought by worldwide moneyslaves with a great style. In Her videos you can admire Her beautiful feet, Her by smoking or humiliating you..you can serve Her as pathetic cuckold too and pay the vacations with Her boyfriend..

She is definitely one of my favorite Goddesses!




středa 10. ledna 2018

favorites findom Goddesses: Jasmine Mendez (USA - NYC)

She is very open with what She is doing and how She lives. There is a documentary about findom on youtube, where She is acting too:


Well there is a huge different beeing Domme in US and in Czech.. you know which?
I guess firstly language, secondly audience..  not only millions of US customers but regularly whole world. She really has hundreds of "slaves"..  paying customers.  84K twitter followers. Buyers of Her videos, supporters, fans, admirers..but surely also local slaves doing Her live easier. Don't forget however, that most of videos are filmed sessions, where maybe even the slave has profit from it - in that case it is an actor. And also, She is not just lifestyle femdom Goddess and financial Dominatrix. She does all kind of fetishes too.
I prefer autentic humiliation sessions with regular local subs of Dommes. I will come to that later in another article.

twitter: @LaughingLatina
clips: iWantJasmine.com
wishlist: amazon
fans: https://onlyfans.com/laughinglatina






úterý 9. ledna 2018

favorites findom Goddesses: GODDESS GINA (CZ)

Hi! i am back on my blog. From now on, i want to introduce my favorite findommes here. Of course, if i write new story or find some interesting article from this topic, i will post it here too.

As i am unemployed now - so called 'broken bitch' - i can not serve Her but at least i will introduce on first place the Goddess who i served for about ten years online: GODDESS GINA
twitter:@xgoddessginax
wishlis pandora

The blog which i wrote during the servitude to Her is here

i will reply you gladly any questions as i used to be Her secretary maid too on my email. And i will hope in this for mto find some reasonable replacement for myself.

When i first time discovered Her picture on czech chat portal..i clearly could see Her superior beauty was shining among those other girls there. She was just 18 and it was clear too, that She is very aware of Her divine beauty - She is narcissistic ..i hoped at least.
Well it was a normal chat portal..i could start to speak to Her online, as probably hundreds of young selfconfident men..but i approached Her is a slave from the very first time. i told Her how superior She is to me, how privileged i would be if i could prove my adoration by my servitude to Her. First gifts started to flow and She enjoyed it. She always had caring boyfriend by Her side.. but i bet, to live with Her was not easy - see some articles about narcissistic personality.
With Her last boyfriend however is She already almost 3 years and i served Him too. They were a wonderful superior alpha couple of my dreams.
i was paying Their wellness, dates, meals, celebrations..  Her manicures, Their jewelry..once i paid for His shoes too, or His birthday cake.
She really made me feel like shit which i am compare to Them. My only purpose was to take care of the dirt on the soles of Their divine shoes, serve Her every whim, worship Her daily and beg for Her superior orders.

i live tousend of km away from Her, which probably only saved me to be Her live-in slave locked in Her basement. it however allowed me to stay attractive to Her as Her paypig - as in Czech Rep. i never would have enough earnings to spoil Her as i used to do from abroad.

Monthly at least 5000 Czech crowns on those different things - but sometimes only parfum or watch or furjacket costs more..

every unthankful payment to the Goddess made me high - every message from Her was thrilling for me - it always was arrogant and humiliating. Her/Their pictures, or audio or video messages were my precious reward - i felt like a pet of superior alpha couple.

twice i was allowed to travel there and serve personally, once i was allowed only to meet Her for cash and go. Everything was described on my and Her blog.

#findom #financialdomination #goddessworship #femdom #spoiledprincess #paypig
#cuck #cuckold #alphacouple #superiorcouple 






neděle 5. března 2017

femdom findom

i haven't wrote long time and of course the reason was i wnated to get rid of my bad habits..  but i am still there..still paying still dreaming still worshipping and so on..
meanwhile - acutally not in such a long time as one year there are many more new Mistresses online. Even in Czech Rep. of course in Germany too and who knows, when this kind of relationship will "step out from the shadow"
The documentary on MTV about findom was quite success and Goddess Jasmine probably also because of it did find bf.
i wanted to post here just a story (one of many which are springing in my head every day):

"so you are that crowlie?" She asked me with superior tone in Her voice sitting next to Her husband. i was standing in front of Them and my voice was trembling after i explained Them my last years of servitude to different Dommes. It was my first "job" interview for a domestic servant of a dominant couple. They were ate least 10 years younger and at least ten times richer than me. They were confident and far superior to me - They knew and i knew that clearly too. i felt like a mouse in front of a cobra. The lady asked Her husband: "why is this shit not on its knees speaking to Us?!"
i imediately was on my knees in front of Them and appologised myself patheticly.
The Sir started to explain, that They are already used to slave service and i have to from now on do according Their expectations. One of them is that slave always kneels at Their presence. i also am not allowed to look into Their eyes, and have to have my eyes always direction to Their feet...  i was like a puppet and did copy everything what He was saying. i ended up kneeling and serving as Their footstool. Tha Lady said, i will serve Them for a probation week, because next week should come some other candidate for that position and She prefer that one. But at least till Then they will be served and it is my chance. She is sure, i will need in that time some proper whipping, because i am so stupid and inferior. i dont like pain, so i just hope They will be ok with my service and i will not be kicked out after the probation week.

i dont live far away from my Owners so the first morning task is not a big deal for me.
i have to make a grocery shopping - fresh backer's ware, fresh fruits, jogurt, joice, filter coffee..  on the plate and serve Them in bed. Always some surprise on the plate too. This morning it was a toe ring for Lady. Tomorrow cigarre for Sir..and so on. They like Their coffee in Their cups with letters: GODDESS and SIR..and i am kneeling with my bowed head and collar in front of Their master bed.
how happy i am to be used like that with this superior couple!

Lady Princess is happy with my first task and allowed me to put the toe ring on Her foot and start to worship Her holy feet. i am like in heaven till a snap of his fingers does not wake me up and a short order bring me to his feet..which is nothing what i was dreaming about - never. but i have to pass the probation week and also am afraid of the whipping..and as Lady Princess laughing commented "everything is once first time"
it was strange and i felt humiliated if a slave like me can be humiliated even more.. but later i learned that it can.
Princess and Sir started to prepare Themself for a day and i was there just to clean up the appartment and follow Their orders where i could be useful. Polish Their shoes, clean the kitchen, hold the coats for Them and kiss their shoes good bye. Then my service started: to clean the whole appartment according small list written by the Lady. i was in homeoffice that day, so i was just online on my computer and anyone could reach my by the phone but practically i was a servant cleaning boy for my Superiors. They went at 3pm for a sauna and massage and after that for dinner paid by my card of course. i had to wait for Them in front of the restaurant and follow Them to the shoppong mall, where i was a moneyslave and shopping slave for Them. holding their bags, helping Them and following Them all evening around. When They make a rest in the Starbucks, i had to hold all the bags and waiti for Them in front of The coffe, so that They can see and control me. i was tired, hungry and happy, that the Lady and Sir did not show the whole day any unsatified sign with my servitude. i had my surprise for Them in the evening..

Back in their living room, the Superiors seated on their leather sofa, me kneeling in front of Them with bowed head, the Lady was commenting my first day..i was surprised how many times i was not enough submissive to Her likes and how many black points i have got. i had a feeling, She wants me to whip and doesnt matter what, She will find a reason. The secong surprise was, She did not want to whip me, but the Sir wanted..because Her last judgement was, that i should bring the Sir the whip and beg Him to whip me. i humbly asked for allowance to speak, and appologised myself for those mistakes and begged Them to take my small tribute (which was my secret evening surprise for Them) i presented banknotes in my hands for Them and long beautiful fingers of the Lady Princess accepted them. "ok, piggy. this tributed saved you from whipping from the Master, and you will be whipped by myslef instead. are you happy dog?" i was happy and afraid too. i kissed the ground at Her feet and hoped that Her whipping will not be that painful as from Him.
i believe, whipping made Her happy and i hope it will be always just Her who will whip me, becasue even She is woman, the slashed were very painful and i was very happy, when She finished.
That evening They were richer, They were stronger, they started to have great sex toghether while i was walking home in the rain beated and tired from first day of servitude and sooo strong in love with Their superior dominance. looking forwards next morngin day and week of slavery to this Goddess and Sir.


neděle 3. května 2015

Duke of Burgundy - Pestrobarvec petrklicovy


http://www.csfd.cz/film/360393-pestrobarvec-petrklicovy/

O vikendu jsem mel moznost to videt konecne posledni kino s sm tematikou. Bylo vic kino kazdopadne, nez sm :)
Sedic v kine jsem pozoroval navstevniky, kdo asi z jakeho duvodu navstivil to promitani. Nekteri byli zjevne sklamani..  a ja..jsem byl znudeny. Ale urcite mel film i pozitiva.

Takze zacnu proc minus
neskutecne pomale a dokonce se opakujici zabery..sice korespondovali s hudbou ale prave proto pak vypadali jeste pomalejsi nez byli. Nerikajic o tom, ze se to nevyvijelo, ale jen neustale opakovalo, stejne jako se opakovali "scenare" jejich milostnich hratek.
Takze chybel pribeh napeti vtip a duvod proc to sledovat vic nez do pulky filmu, kde uz na scenu prichazeji jakesi umelecke sny, halucinace, vize..ktere na mne vsak pusobili jako vycpavka pro nedostatek dalsich napadu na pokracovani filmu. Vydrzel jsem dokonce, cehoz vysledek byla znudenost..

ted plus:
krasne zabery, kamera, muzika, sceny, vytvarne spracovani..
hezky ukazane, jak je dynamika Ds vztahu komplikovana:
subinka v nekterych momentech byla vyslovene panovacni a naopak Domina krehka a nejista
Naopak kdyz si uvedomila svou pozici a chcela "dominovat posvem"..subinka najednou trpela skutecne a ne "podle sveho prani"

mimochodem, Petrobarvec vypada takhle:

úterý 30. prosince 2014

after long break

it is long time, i did not post.
i am "dead" :(
i made a terrible mistake
i am SORRY

when She was here in my city and i was serving on my knees..i was allowed to serve HER..and i was changed - i act suddenlty like normal guy who is forced to serve..  i was allowed to feed Her, while the second (Her proper slave - respect man) was licking Her feet..  and while i was feeding Her, i laughed! i was changed and was not able to come back to my slave position, was not able to stop that stupid thing..  that moment was for me absurd - i remeber it very well! ..and SHE.. SHE calmly explained me just to go away.. that we can meet later on as friends..but now She doesnt want to get spoil the D/s femdom atmosphere which SHE genially created.. i STUPID agreed (looking forward the friendly meeting afterwards) and now i am, where i am..  namely SHE then - one hour later expleined me by the text message, that i lost HER 4ever..  and SHE never wants to see me again.
When i think about my laughing THAT moment, i would whip me myself again and again..
i have hardly something to look forward since then..




Today i have seen nice correspondation (in connection with what i wrote above), and i would like to share it (of course showing the source: www.saharaheve.com)

Dear Ms. Saharaheve:
I’m a new, late 30’s male with limited r/l experience.  I have lots of experience with pro doms and a brief relationship going back a while ago with a lady who liked to dominate me.  Unfortunately she didn’t do a lot of the things pro doms did to me and I assumed she wasn’t a real dom.  I’m kinda at fault because I was under many assumptions such as,
1. thinking all doms were ready to play with anyone 24/7
2.  thinking Mistresses always walked around with all their war make-up on, hair all done up, fetish clothes on and in high heels 24/7
 Yeah,  pretty naive.
I started off thinking all I had to do was tell her my kinks and fetishes then poof she’d  be interested in them.  It didn’t last and off I went to join BDSM dating sites.
So many guys are hardwired to their sex drives and I’m wondering if  you see a lot of men who think doms are wired to just hook up with anyone just because they like the same thing?
I’m older now and the sexual component is not as important to me as finding out what pleases her and making it happen.
[Name Omitted]

Hi Writer,
No, Mistresses are not always dressed up in heels, make-up and sexy clothes 24/7.  And neither do we walk around hoping to tempt all males into total submission.  LOL.  On a more serious note, I am glad you wrote.  I have decided it is time to make a post about My personal opinions regarding online fantasy vs. real-life reality of Mistress and slave. For Me, writing this entry is a matter of  intellectual conscience, for as I speak with many newbie males I have increasingly realized that something needs to be addressed about how “Mistresses” and “slaves” really interact in the real world. To cut to the chase, there is a vast curtain of adult commercial glitz and glamour in the industry that is Femdom, and unless an impressionable man knows otherwise, he can easily get caught up in the gilded illusions of fetish porn and the fantastical imagery of adult actress celebrities with whips. Imagery, mind you, that is beautifully and sensually designed to arouse—but says really nothing of the context of a relationship between a Woman and Her slave.
In the enormous continuum of media churned out by adult-porn studios, professional Dominatrices, and otherwise celebrity/would-be celebrity Dominas, we get to see a lot of sexy and erotic content, for sure. Oral sex, face sitting, anal penetration with strap-ons, or outright intercourse are things that seem as foregone conclusions with all this sexy “Mistress and slave” stuff. What many may fail to realize is that nearly 100% of the men featured in these images and films are paid adult actors and models (AKA hired “meat puppets”) for adult studios, and most of the Women featured in these images and films are paid adult actresses in fetish regalia that walk the walk and talk the talk under the guidance of a director. Anything beyond  that often tends to be a dominant Woman and Her paying client or an intimate partner, whom She fully knows, playing the part of a “slave” online, engaging in sexual acts on cam, in photos or in movies with one fairly ubiquitous goal in mind: to procure the interests of more clients or customers. Not that there is anything wrong with good marketing, but we would never, for an instant, be so gullible as to assume the worlds presented to us in glossy magazine ads, commercials and movies are real, so why would we attribute reality to any of the media we see regularly presented by commercial studios and professional services online?
The simple point is we should not, for if we do we are liable to be a bit confused when the candy coated porn version hits the concrete of the real world and bloodies its nose. In reality, you may never, as a slave, have access to your Mistress as shown in all these movies. So, to avoid mincing words or droning on without getting to the point, let Me simply say the following: Being servile does not allow a male instant access to a Woman’s sex, Her dominance or even Her affection.
Unlike professional Dominatrices, a dominant Woman—much less a Mistress—is not obligated to serve your fetishes, your kinks, or your desires for romantic intimacy.  The obligation and responsibility goes from man to Woman and slave to Mistress. That is really the entire point of Mistress and slave. Indeed, She may enjoy using him sexually and to Her satisfaction, but it is not a given that She will or must, and many of the would-be slaves out there really need to consider this deeply before jumping into the pool with too many assumptions. And the assumptions are pretty easy to have by way of imagery paraded before our eyes whenever we look up the words Femdom or Mistress and slave on the Internet or read about them in fantasy novels.
Looking at these many movies online acted out by professional Dominatrices and adult actresses, we get the sense that the Ladies are all fast and indiscriminate—that they are not all that picky about who they choose to allow to service them sexually, but the reality is almost always quite different. A Mistress is a Woman, a human being first and foremost.  Her desire to dominate you, if it is authentic, is triggered by you, i.e., you are that inspiring incentive.  She does not walk around with a deep seated passion to dominate any and all males.  She is a human being, and like all human beings, context often informs Her interests in the sexual act. She must be attracted to a man first before wanting—truly wanting—to dominate him and engage in the deeper shades of sexual exchange with him.  And when I say “attracted” I am not only speaking of the physical, but of the psychological, and, truth be told, the latter is more where it is at. A beautiful man can still be a blunt and ungainly ignoramus with no class or depth and without the right attitude he is not going to be very attractive to an alpha Female.
If a man wants to have that special privilege of serving his Goddess so intimately he needs to have the right stuff and that stuff can not be faked transiently. Outside of being an attractive and honorable man in general, he needs to prove himself through blood, sweat, and tears that he is there for Her and that he cares deeply for Her comfort and gain. Always loyal and eager to please Her, always there for Her and extending himself for Her, he will impart a sense of security and thus comfort Her immensely. But even this is not enough, necessarily, for a slave is expected to provide these things with or without sexual intimacy anyway. He can have many good qualities and still remain kept from tasting Her intimately. This should not be something that makes him quit at all. It should inspire him toward his servitude all the more. Indeed, slave labor sublimates sexual tension and drive but the slave himself may not ever be allowed access to Her at all…and this will only serve to tease and deliciously compel his slavery. Ideally he should come to see Her as an untouchable embodiment of the Feminine Divine, an entity he should feel lucky enough to simply be in the presence of alone, and should he be granted the privilege of kissing Her feet, it will be awe-inspiring and satiating alone.
But sex and sexual acts? These are never a given, as much as all the gobs of Internet movies like to lead one to think otherwise. As stated above, for as much as a man may have good qualities and perfect loyalty, that is not a guarantee he will be wanted intimately.  All slaves must come before their potential Mistresses knowing this potential reality. If he does appeal to Her and he remains a devoted and all-consumed heel-licking slave for Her every whim, he may very well have the lofty pleasure and honor of pleasing Her. But never should the sexual act or Her sexual interest be taken for granted as the world of fetish porn seems so given to do.

středa 7. května 2014

fiction (?)

i did not write here long time, but tonight i am soo inspired..

Here i go:

it did not took long, when my costs were cut to the minimum.
well, i am allowed to live, where i lived, and do not need to sell the car
but can not afford to drive it, if i don't  ask for permission (and money) to buy gas.
i learned to live from cheap but healthy groceries, never eat at restaurants
i spend lot of time cooking, exercising, reading, walking, taking pictures, learning..
i stopped using internet except doing researchs and work for Her or doing moneytransfers to Her
Actualy this happened only once in month..
Except my fix monthly expenses, i am allowed to keep money for 3 average grocery shopping weekly. Mostly i just made shopping only twice so i could save weekly one average grocery shopping for unexpected expenses.
i am allowed to keep also 2x44euro for the bus drive twice monthly
that's it
the rest, which makes exactly 50% of my income, goes every first day of the month to Her account
i had to sign to Her, that i am doing it on my own will and that i owned Her that monthly amount
i also am required at least 2 weekends of the month to be available for Her to any personal services, which She requests: like driving Her (in Her car - because i got allowance only for bus to come to Her place) or doing domestic chores or other services.
This was signed by U/us both in a contract for probation period of 4 months
In contract i am also required to be locked at least 4 days of the week in CB6000 without Her reminding me..  if She orders it can be changed to full week..or weeks..usually the week before personal service to Her and during the service-weekend, i am locked all the time.

it is really a kick for me to know, while i am getting used to live so temperate, mostly alone and without any chance to anything extra like cinema or coffee outside or traveling somewhere on weekends and if, then only to be able to wait on Her hand and foot..it is a kick to know, that She is enjoying life, growing to beauty and luxury, enjoying perfect service of Her long term local personal slave and fun with Her boyfriend..

i am NOT complaining! i say, it is a kick for me - in a positive way. i also learnd how to use time better, i stopped my compulsive masturbating habits, i am more focused and calm.. and i am even so greatful to Her that i have twice a month highlights of my life! Each visit is like space trip! The most exciting and extraordinary experience! The more are different O/our lifes, the bigger experience it is for me to be the small serving part of Her divine life.

i am very thankful Her for showing me my place, my purpose and allowing me to stay in contact
thank You Mistress




neděle 16. února 2014

Sardax

i got the pleasure to invite Mistress and Her slave to a nice restaurant.. very special evening, very nice ambient and very unique company..  absolut gorgeous Mistress and her special devoted slave and me.. who am i..  She said, Her first and He is the last..  in the meaning of time..i am the first..  in the meaning of fact..he is the first..  serving Her whenever She feels like..  and me so far ..searching myself, fighting with yes's and no's..  lost loser alone lonely without purpose
i was happy however then and was speaking..maybe on Her wish, when She said: "amuse Me slaves"
or just only that i was happy and maybe drunk too..  
i mentioned this picture, and She said: YES She would enjoy it
what a burning imagine, what a new meaning for that nice picture ..it is like Her on it ..and me i hope, for Her amusement


servant

"ok, if I ever grant you a visit again, you may clean my boots that way" was Her reply on my begging..  She asked me before, how much i would be thankful, if She allows me to pay for one of Her bills that day.. my reply was, i would thankfully lick Her boots clean for Her
Her private slave got order to send me one of Her bills.. and he did
But i was such a loser, who did not had enough money this month, so next month i will pay double the rest..and still hope for Her visit.. to serve Her like my destiny is..  to be just servant and slave to superiors